I walk the path sometimes at nightthrough my yard to the house.I take great care to maintain the yard;nature responds with her blooming beauty. On dark, moonless nightslittle can be seen. On this night, I turn the corner tocatch sight of her-a bright smile in a sea of darkness.I am enchanted, entranced,enthralled by the moonbeams […] Read More..
I was probably right to be nervous,lying on my back, looking up at her,when she began to smear Vaselineall over my lips. I grew very tense as she pushed, prodded, andtried to work herself into the proper spots. I gave myself orders:Relax.Be loose.Don’t forget to breathe. She kept at it with force,with determination. She knew […] Read More..
Winter in my childhoodwas two solid months covered by snow—late weekday evenings and early Sunday mornings,long, empty sidewalks and quiet alleys;my active young mind wandered aimlessly through fantasiesas my cold feet carried me purposefully along the daily route. I stuffed the bottoms of my pant legs into the topsof cheap plastic boots that sank well […] Read More..
Every little sound echoes behind melike whispers bouncing with the bright lightmagnified because everything in the roomis white. The paint on the wall in front of me is dull, flat,but the ceramic tiles that cover so muchof the room’s cold surfacesand the bright clean porcelain of the sinksleave me feeling like I have a floodlightat […] Read More..
Every time a big truck drives byor a car door in the distance slams too loudI wonder if it’s the sound of one coming. I’ve been out here a year andthe first took the longest to hit. Not long after, a couple camewithin a week of each other. When the shaking stops, we allwalk out […] Read More..
I rested on a lofted bedin the single-occupancy dorm roomof my first lover.I did not love her; it was just that shehad made it easy for me. Others before her tried, but this one reminded meof the first girl I really loved—light-colored hair and eyesthat smiled warmth, smart but not boring,raised Protestant but agnostic, ahead […] Read More..
We had all we needed, but still found ways to want. We played football and smoked Marlboros and formed the first gang our tiny all-white town had ever seen. We stole warm cases of stale Old Milwaukee from the bowling alley and lit trash on fire in the patch of woods at the edge of […] Read More..
Admit that you’re human, that life can feel like it’s too much.I’m just a regular guy. Sometimes I don’t feel like being around people. Realize that others struggle, too, and might be able to help.You seem to understand where I’m coming from. Maybe you could give me some pointers. Commit to being a part of […] Read More..
There are a few good reasons, at leastnot to take my laptop to bed.But when I’m lounging on the reclinerwatching youtube or reading fark,sometimes I just feel like getting under the covers. Much like my earliest experiences with cable television,I stay up past my bedtime, my mind passive but not at restas sounds and images […] Read More..
I was sitting at home when the call came; I had the afternoon off and the house to myself. I anticipated telling a telemarketer to get lost. Instead I heard a shaky voice on the other end, barely more than a whisper; after a few odd questions, she said: “I think…I think you’re my mother…” […] Read More..